Repost from Lakdhez.com
I was busy listening to a podcast and from no where,I had this urge to write this.
I never realized writing was an escape for me and in fact,without realizing,it made me better in many occasion,the moment I complete an article.
Delivering the abstract images in your mind into words that could reach thousands of readers around the world is one of the hardest thing to do.Unlike videography,photography nor music,writing is entirely a different feeling yet I love it each time I started penning it down.
Past few days,the amount of sleep I slept was less than usual,somedays I only slept for 4 hours but I don't know why,I love what I'm doing.In 2 days,I already mailed ,messaged,spoke to more than 105 people regarding my website.The conversation that really count;I can count them with my fingers yet I don't feel like giving up.
My circle get smaller day by day.People that never stay with you when you have nothing never deserves to be with you when you have everything is the only lesson I learnt from people around me.
A day,I have 5 figure amount in my account,weeks later,I roamed with my last penny.The cycle kept repeating months after months.I made wrong move,screwed up everything,learnt,earned back and invested in something wrong and back to zero.It's kinda tiring when I think about it.
"Why don't you just save them,buy a car,move on,live a better life,eat well,sleep well,why this unnecessary cycle?"
These question popped up in my head time to time.
"You're a doctor,just focus on it rather than spreading yourself thin",my self asked me at time..
"What if I regret for not trying when I'm in my coffin?"
Regret is more costly.
This entire attempt could wipe the invisible tears of millions a day; if this works,right?
I convinced myself..What is more gruesome than crying alone,at night,in front of a mirror,screaming without letting others hear you..How many people underwent and still undergoing it daily in their life..
The pain that they experiencing,maybe because I experienced it,I knew how it felt and how the heart seek for a helping hand from the invisible power which never ever reach at the moment of need.That was a torture.
I wish and I will change it.One day,million of life should sleep peacefully because of my effort,millions of life should heal,millions of souls should reach home safely,millions of kids should study because of me and millions of hungry stomach should filled with food because of my move.That thought itself never let me to give up nor quit.
If you had a chance to stop it,would it a risk worth taking?"I asked myself and I always knew the answer,and it never chance for years,it's a YES.
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